Happy Being Alive!!

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“BE HAPPY BECAUSE YOU ARE ALIVE, SMILE BECAUSE YOU ARE ALIVE.
BEFORE SOMETIME I USE TO LAUGH AT THESE LINES THAT WHAT IS SO HAPPY BEING ALIVE, LITERALLY BEFORE FEW MONTHS I WAS SO FRUSTRATED WITH MY LIFE THAT I HAD NO CLUE.
WHAT TO DO WITH MY LIFE NEXT, I WAS ABSOLUTELY CLUELESS AND DEEPLY SAD WITH MY LIFE DESPITE OF HAVING EVERYTHING, I WAS NOT HAPPY, INFACT SOME DAYS I WISH THAT I SHOULD DIE WHILE DRIVING OR FEEL SUICIDAL AT MANY TIMES,

WHEN I FELT THAT LIFE IS SLIPPING FROM MY HANDS ,NOTHING IS IN MY CONTROL ,I AM THE VICTIM OF ALL MY
SITUATIONS AND LONG LIST OF REASONS WHICH NEVER LET ME FEEL HAPPY ABOUT MY LIFE.
DESPITE OF EVERYTHING, AS I AM A VERY PROGRESSIVE AND FORWARD-LOOKING PERSON, SO I
ALWAYS TRY TO DO MY BEST, EVENAFTER FEELING VERY DEPRESSED AND SAD AT TIMES. NEXT
MORNING, I AGAIN WAKE UP AND TRY TO BE THE BEST VERSION OF MYSELF IN ALL AREAS OF
MY LIFE. I TRY MYSELF TO BE MY BEST, BUT SOMEHWERE THAT DEEP ROOTED QUESTIONS AND
SADNESS ALWAYS PINCH ME FROM INSIDE WHICH MAKE ME SAD AND GLOOMY ALL OF A
SUDDEN.
I WAS IN QUEST OF FINDING MY WAY TO HAPPINESS AND SOLVING MY LIFE MYSTERIES AND
ONE DAY I GET THE NEWS THAT MY UNCLE’S BEST FRIEND WHO WAS A DOCTOR HIMSELF IS IN
VERY SERIOUS CONDITION AS HIS BOTH KIDNEYS ARE FAILED AND HE HAS BEEN RECENTLY
SHIFTED TO LEELA WATI MUMBAI ,HIS NAME WAS BHASKAR DEV AND EXACTLY LIKE HIS NAME
THIS PERSON WHOM I HAVE KNOWN SINCE MY CHILDHOOD IS AN ANGEL IN A HUMAN FORM
,HE HAS SAVED MANY LIVES INCLUDING MY MOTHER’S AND MY LIFE,HE HAS SAVED MY AUNT’S
LIFE ,HE HAS ADOPTED MANY CHILDREN BEARED ALL THEIR EXPENSES AND PEOPLE WHO
KNOW HIM SAY THAT HE COULDN’T SEE ANYBODY IN PAIN AND IMMEDIATELY HELP OTHERS IN
ANY CONDITION WHETHER IT IS HEALTH ISSUES OR FINANCIAL OR JUST SUPPORTING
SOMEONE MENTALLY AND EMOTIONALLY…HE IS ALWAYS THERE TO STAND NEXT TO ANYBODY
WHO NEEDS HELP OR IS IN ANY PROBLEM.
SO LISTENING TO THIS NEWS WE ALL WERE IN SHOCK, BUT WHILE DOING NIGHT WALK WE
DISCUSSED THAT HE IS A GREAT GUY AND NOTHING WILL HAPPEN TO HIM. HE WILL BE
ABSOLUTELY OKAY IN FEW DAYS ,WE WERE ALSO PLANNING TO VISIT HIS HOME NEXT DAY TO
MEET HIS MOM ,NEXT DAY WE COULD’NT MAKE IT AND IN NIGHT WE GOT THE NEWS THAT HE
HAS PASSED AWAY ,LISTENING TO THIS NEWS WE ALL GOT NUMB WE COULNT BELIEVE
SOMETHING LIKE THIS HAPPENED ,NEXT DAY WHEN MY PARENTS WENT TO HIS HOUSE HIS
MOTHER TOLD MY MOM THAT “HE ALREADY KNEW THAT HE WILL DIE BETWEEN THE AGE OF
45-50” AND HE WAS ALSO A KNOWN ASTROLOGER SO SOMEHOW HE KNEW THAT THIS WAS GOING TO HAPPEN AND MANY TIMES WE JUST KNOW SOMETHING BY OUR SIXTH SENSE AND
INTUITION ALTHOUGH THIS IS VERY UNEXPLAINABLE BUT IT HAPPENS .
FROM LAST FEW MONTHS WHEN HE GOT FEELING THAT THESE MIGHT BE HIS LAST DAYS OF
LIFE ,HE WENT INTO DEPRESSION ,HE COMPLETELY STOPPED TAKING CARE OF HIMSELF,I CANT
SAY EXACTLY BUT HE MIGHT BE VERY DEEPLY SCARED AND FRIGHTENED THAT ANYTHING
MIGHT HAPPEN AT ANY MOMENT, THAT IS WHY HE WAS SO SCARED TO VISIT HOSPITALS IN HIS
LAST DAYS,ALL HE WANTED IS JUST TO SPEND TIME WITH HIS FAMILY HIS MOTHER WIFE AND
TWO SMALL KIDS ,HE USE TO SLEEP KEEPING HIS KIDS LYING ON HIS CHEST EACH NIGHT ,HE
MIGHT BE THINKING TO GIVE ALL THE LOVE TO HIS KIDS IN THE REMAINING TIME HE HAS LEFT
WITH ,HE HAS SPENT LAVISHLY ON DIWALI FESTIVAL AND HE HAS DECORATED HIS HOUSE
MORE THAN A WEDDING HOUSE AND CELEBRATED GURU NANAK JAYANTI WITH GRAND
CELEBRATION AND NEXT DAY HE GOT ADMITTED TO HOSPITAL DUE TO INFECTION IN HIS
KIDNEYS AND NEVER CAME BACK HOME .
TILL TODAY I COULNT DIGEST WHAT ALL HAPEPEND SO SUDDENLY ,I AM VERY MUCH NORMAL
FROM OUTSIDE BUT IT HAS AFFECTED ME DEEPLY SOMEWHERE AND AS I AM AN EMPATH I
CATCH EMOTIONS AND ENERGY OF OTHERS VERY QUICKLY ,ALL THIS TIME I WAS JUST
IMAGINING HOW HE MIGHT HAVE FELT IN HIS LAST DAYS OF LIFE AND THINKING ABOUT THAT I
STARTED TO FEEL THE FEAR HE WAS FEELING :THE FEAR OF DEATH” THAT “WHAT IF I WILL DIE
ANYTIME SOON”I WAS GETTING THIS THOUGHT VERY REPEATEDLY AT FIRST I CRITISIZED
MYSELF FOR HAVING SO MUCH EMPATHY, BUT THEN I REALIZED THAT THE LIFE I HAVE IS SO
PRECIOUS BECAUSE WHEN I AM FEELING THAT I MIGHT DIE ANYTIME… ALL I CAN THINK OF IS
HAVING MY LIFE,LIVING MY LIFE ,HAVING MY NEAR ONCE CLOSER TO ME , LOVING THEM AS
MUCH AS I CAN ,SMILE AS MUCH AS I CAN, I COULD NOT THINK OF ANYTHING ELSE I USE TO
THINK ON DAILY ROUTINE BASIS LIKE HAVING LUXURY CARS, BIG MANSION, LOTS OF BUSINESS
NOTHING ..I JUST FELT SO MUCH IN LOVE WITH MYSELF AND MY LIFE I PUT MY HAND ON MY
CHEST TO FEEL THAT HEART BEAT WHICH IS STILL BEATING I THINK THAT IS THE MOST
PRECIOUS GIFT I CAN HAVE ..NOW I CAN UNDERSTAND THE PHRASE THAT “YOU ARE NOT HERE
TO ACHIEVE ANYTHING OR TO REACH A MILESTONE YOU ARE JUST HERE TO LIVE TO BE HAPPY
AND TO JUST SMILE” AND ALL YOU HAVE IS MUCH MORE THAN ENOUGH ..
THIS LIFE IS A GIFT AND NO ONE OTHER THAN A PERSON WHO KNOW HE IS ABOUT TO DIE CAN
UNDERSTAND THIS BETTER. TODAY I FEEL SAD FOR MYSELF FOR THAT DAY WHEN I USE TO
TAKE MYSELF AND LIFE FOR GRANTED BECAUSE WE OFTEN THINK THAT WE ARE GOING TO LIVE
FOREVER OR ITS JUST ANOTHER PERSON WITH WHOM SOMETHING LIKE THIS CAN EVER
HAPPEN ,WE OFTEN TAKE OURSELF AND OUR LIFE FOR GRANTED ,WE TREAT IT SO LIGHTLY BUT
TODAY I AM MORE THAN HAPPY JUST TO BE ALIVE …

© Chitranshi Jain – 04.12.2018  

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27 thoughts on “Happy Being Alive!!

  1. a fetus, hatch from a womb
    grown up with care n love
    taught the gesture to live
    with swords nd shell to survive
    he failed,
    failed to show his calibre
    calibre he undoubtedly had,
    but he had faith,
    faith n beleif n trust on
    on what not any exaggeration
    but on his dexterity
    on his adherness to fight,
    nd then what
    victory kissed his forehead

    everyone praised him nd followed him
    nd so did the ultimate paradox – death
    he was shattered,
    as no one could win against
    he enters a phase – phase of fear,
    he make every effort to survive,
    bt lastly vanish away

    He had forgotten that life n death r just station,
    control on which is in the unknown,
    the actual journey comprises of to, make memories with
    mischief ;achievement; friends, family, bifercated by love, funful fights, passion, nd what not.

    explore this wonderful life with ur loving one with basic necessity despite of running for ‘more’
    this is what only required……

    inspired by Chitranshi Jain, for the very same post

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